I don't know what to say about this, except that I'm feeling mixed emotions about a certain someone, and I wish I didn't. I used to be home schooled, and I always tried to refrain from feeling any emotion when it came to dating. Whoever I had, I would give my all to make it work out as long as the other half was willing.

Then I fell into puppy love, then, what felt like real love...

I don't believe in love anymore. People may say otherwise, but as for me, I now believe love is just another feeling that won't always last long. key word, "always". So others may feel love forever, and be one of those "We've been married for 50 years and we still love each other as much as we did when we first met" couples, but I don't believe that sort of thing is for me.

Unless someone, or something can change that.

So I went from refrain, to giving in, and now, back to refraining from loving emotions and feelings. I hate emotion and feeling, and I wish I had none. But life without feeling is no life at all...

So I'll try my best at what I'm sure of...

My best is art.
My worst is...correction: My worst are breaking promises, superstitions and letting them control my life, misguidance, need for popularity, and attention.

I hate my worsts. I hate the "love" bug.